Praise to Trungpa Rinpoche

Praise to Rinpoche in Surmang,

Monastic student and prolific, young, vajra master.

Praise to you who escaped to India and leapt to the British Isles.

Praise to you who went to Tak Seng, giving us all the Sadhanna of Mahamudra.

Praise to you leaping to North America,

Magnetizing students to Tail of the Tiger.

 

Praise to you in blue jeans and suspenders under the Rocky Mountain so blue sky,

Teaching the four "savage truths" with a big smile.

Praise to you in gray suit, sipping sake while giving no ground to the shaggy hippy   

Naropa audience.

Praise to you in tuxedo in Denver, watching the Regent dance with Lady Diana.

Praise to you in yellow robes—radiation without radiator.

Praise to you in khaki

and praise to you in  pristine Great Ocean uniform with black riding boots

astride Drala, galloping down from the higher realms.

Praise to you in your office so available,

Looking over spectacles at us as if to ask, "Really?"

 

Praise to Rinpoche in Cape Breton, PEI, and in the Apple Blossom Festival

Of the Annapolis Valley,

surrounded by your retinue of youthful dakinis.

Praise to you who could tickle and awe.

Praise to you, Druk Sakyong, for creating this Kingdom of Shambhala.

 

Praise to you and your chubby right hand, wielding the big brush,

And praise to you and your left hand of prajna, so often cupped in your lap

As if holding a skull cup or standing vajra.

 

Praise to you and your sadhanas, guru yogas, poems both traditional and Ginsberg-esque

And for your dharma books that continue to pour down from the dharmakaya.

Praise to you in the pine needles and summer grasses,

In the raindrops racing down the window and in the gathering clouds.

Praise to you in the rainbows, single or double,

In the storms and high winds,

In the fire of fire pujas and in the sand of sand mandalas.

Praise to you Rinpoche!

Honk a horn, blow gyalings,

Beat a drum, or sky-write "Praise!"

Raise a toast in Bobby Burns fashion:

"Praise to you now who are everywhere!"

--Linda V. Lewis, April 2010

HUM

I prostrate to the guru
Who embodies the three jewels
I prostrate to the guru
Who sometimes abides on the top of my head
As compassionate nirmanakaya
I prostrate to the guru
Who sometimes resides in the secret center
As blazing sambhogakaya
I prostrate to the guru
Who always presides in my heart
As essence of life
I prostrate to the guru
All-pervasive space

In the natural hierarchy of the heart
You are the emperor
From the palace of great bliss
You rule the worlds
With incomparable kindness
You tend the subjects
As a flower to the sun
The lotus of devotion turns to you, Lord

I prostrate to the guru, who is wisdom
I prostrate to the guru, who is joy
I prostrate to the guru of existence
I prostrate to the guru, who is life

With infinite patience you tame this rebel mind
And save me from the pain of conditioned existence
You lead me on the path of virtuous action
And empower me to become myself

I prostrate to the guru of example
I prostrate to the guru, who is light
I prostrate to the guru of great passion
I prostrate to the guru, who is space

I prostrate to the guru, who is sadness
I prostrate to the guru, who is pain
I prostrate to the guru, who is madness
I prostrate to the guru, the great sun

-Olive Colon,
Chakrasamvara retreat doha, June 1989

I pay homage

I pay homage to the glorious
Holy Guru
sometimes Nyingma, sometimes Kagyu
sometimes That luminous awakeness
which is your own mind.
I bow to the glorious
Holy Guru
the flower falling from cloudless sky
the wall of razors
cutting the vein of ego.
I prostrate to the glorious
Holy Guru
the torch lighting the way
the rug pulled out beneath
I praise the glorious
Holy Guru
who shows the mind at rest
who bombards the mind with thoughts.
Between this and that
resting in awareness beyond right and wrong
knowing the difference
singing the song of wakefulness
like the king of birds
leaving the mountains below,
I pay homage to the one......
That which liberates all.

came to mind on a mountain top in oregon
i remember my only father Chogyam Trungpa
may we rest our weary minds and see what is.
thank you,

Tharpa Lodro aka bobby higgins

A tribute, from a new student

Chogyam Trungpa's mischevious glint

shook me up, ask

whassat funk yer in?

no thisses no thats!

just touch and go

smile sweethearts

on the road to O

Rinpoche has so gracefully, lovingly and so unapologetically persuaded me that I am both luminous and normal; capable of anything imaginable and everything unimaginable. Studying and living with his Sangha feeds itself inexorably, like jumping onto a waterslide: no amount of even my stubbornness can defy the forward motion and the pool beyond.

The transition from way open-heartedness to speed was cushioned by an almost endless moonlit walk in the park. We drifted through misty black and white gardens in a sea of softly rumbling colour, relishing the last of our retreat before diving back into this turbulent ocean, somewhat wiser, somewhat sadder and somehow more in love.

His own love so utterly disarming, forgiving, confident that a drop dissolves confusion, instills a warrior's gentle strength and in particular with The Sakyong, the clarity to live each moment for each other. Now then, happily humbled to find a community dedicated to helping one another so vulnerably living, loving and hurting, buoyed by compassion, propelled by wisdom.

All hail the happy man from Tibet and his glorious extended family!!

Edmund Butler

January 2010

Tribute to Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

We Never Met

We never met,

Not in this life anyway.

Not that you didn't offer me the chance.

And even though I wasn't ready

I never forgot you.

I still see you sitting on the stage

Poised to make 'the master stroke' and then:

"I am so ashamed."

You said enough to let me know

I might grow up someday.

Does it matter that your body is gone?

Of course it matters and yet.......

Daily now

Your teachings fill my brimming eyes

The hot and salty tears

melting the ice of my cold arrogance

melting my wall of separation from others

melting all the hidden places in my heart

that have I been terrified to know.

Sometimes when I hear your voice

Or even just read your words,

the only thing I can do is deeply gasp

as if the way you just appeared was so potent

I nearly drown in just the reading of it.

So piercingly true are you,

so precise a doctor for our sick world,

for my sick heart.

On this sad and cheerful day

a toast to you, Sir.

No concoctions,

just a straight drink

tossed back with gentleness

so hot all the way down

it brings tears to my eyes.

Eyes which are beginning to see

things as they are.

Endlessly Giving

ENDLESSLY GIVING Court chatter, baby blue and gold, madness in my household, warriorship in my living room, never truly understanding the beauty of your chaos. Monarch of your breath, hard and soft cosmic touch, tickles or cuts, feather or razor blade, today and tomorrow, difficult problems of non-attachment. Loving father, gifting patriarch, skillful touch of deceptively complex matriarch, my king and queen are endless, figments of my devotion, to this primordial open heart. When was the karmic genesis? The first time you felt your heart beat! Green pines, sage brush and collecting juniper, 100 different shades of khaki in formation, gentle army clumsily sharpening dignity, liberates through genuine leader, sake glass emptying high command has issued orders, be kind! Crying mouths, why has it become so contrived, why is the son not as the father! unrest, mistrust and unbelievable egos, clinging, co-opting, practicing attachment, it started when one man was not attached, and looked inside himself, and it ends when you look inside yourself, and do the same. Choggie laughs, smiles he'll never let you down, except to see the truth, unless you feel too safe. giving endlessly in to you, endlessly giving in to you. I've been so tired, but I woke up, on April 4th, to say goodbye again. To tell you my love is endless, endlessly giving to you. -Gesar

We are all Sakyongs and Sakyong Wangmos

We are all Sakyongs and Sakyong Wangmos

Eat the rice

Drink the milk

Swallow the teachings on white paper

Smile at the Guru

Stunned in ordinary magic

You float into the day AWAKE!

Shambhala Revolution

Give everything away in the snap of the fingers

No more green stamps!

No more Macdonalds!

No more countries, no more war!

Wave the victory banner

Eisenstein Awake!

Film the madness as we stop still and look

HO-HUM

HO-HUM

HO-HUM

-the end/the beginning

the beginning/the end

England expects every man to do his duty!

The Great Switcheroo has landed!

  

Rita Ashworth

Stockport UK

SUPPLICATION BEYOND TIME

When we were insane beasts blinded by our own obsessions,

You became the Wild Yogi who paralyzed us in mid air.

When we were the horde, ravishing a corrupt heritage,

You became the youthful prince encompassing our innocence.

When we set out to conquer the meager territory of self clemency,

You became a Warrior to pierce the shadows of hope and fear.

When we were panicked, obsessed by our longevity,

You became the monarch above limitless realms.

When we cried for surfeit, a minimum of satisfaction,

You became the ultimate siddha: the dharmata beyond time.

O'guru, no one has come before you and no one after.

You have existed before the depths of our minds.

The source of your vision stands open before us. 

You were not born, you did not die.

Your only manifestation is pure compassion, limitless blessing.

This is your nature, your life, the greatest gift.

Remember that which is beyond recollection.

Perceive that which is already known.

Return, though there is no where to come back to.

Chogyi Gyatso, what is your name?

This suplication was read to the Sakyong and Sakyong Wangmo at the Parinirvana gathering in NYC April 4, 2009.

-Philip Richman- This was composed Thamcho Sero (Golden Light of Dharma), October 31, 1987, on the feast day of the Glorious Heruka Chakrasamvara.

I think of the guru

I think of the guru
I remember Trungpa Rinpoche.
I remember the wide smile and Cheshire teeth,
the cowboy shirt with suspenders,
and sometimes a cowboy hat.
I think of the crazy wisdom guru and remember velvet eyes looking over glass rims.
I think of the guru.
I remember Chogyam's chubby hands gracefully playing with a vajra,
skillfully playing with a damaru,
or holding a glass to his lips,
sipping and setting the glass soundlessly down while teaching dharma.
Distracted, I'd watch and forget to listen.
But his movements were dharma too.
I remember the guru,
walking like mahakala, holding a kasung's hand.
I remember the guru,
I remember his giggling while dribbling rice on my head or ticleling me on the sofa.
I remember the guru,
his pride in his wife and sons.
I think of the guru--
his face sweating before the Karmapa's first visit.
I think of the guru,
his tears of joy greeting and parting from His Holiness Khyentse Rinpoche.
I remember Trungpa Rinpoche
and the various experiential ways he pointed out the true nature of mind.
I remember the Druk Sakyong, suddenly self-arisen monarch in yellow robes,
proclaiming the Great Eastern Sun
not exactly to be confused with the dawn of Vajrasattva.
I remember the guru
screeching the Shambhala Anthem.

Decades have passed and new old photos appear,
but better than remembering,
the first signs of his Kingdom can be seen
And I feel the guru smiling as he moves from Dewachen to
Glorious Copper Colored Mountain to
Akanishta to Shambhala--
enjoying the realms spiritual and temporal.
And I feel the guru living in my heart.

April 15, 2009
Linda V. Lewis

above stars

Alone beneath these stars

I sometimes wonder how far

And how I long to be alone

 To wish away desires

Like a tossed skipping stone

 

Moving towards right mindfulness

 A broken past surely won’t be missed

And with each patient moment

A little more revealed

To tickle new insights

Moving me to heal

 

Calmly and passively proud

This breathing begins to slow

As the depth of the night sky descends

Relieves me

To swallow me whole

 

For once was a fettered soul

For a jewel on a path shown

With witness and awareness dancing afar

What a journeys end becomes

Leaves me resting with these stars

 

By Raymon Palermo

(no subject)

So ... you have brought me here
To the land of the Red Moon
Ruled by the dark Dao Shonu
Nevertheless I shall prostrate to Vajradhara
From Sun up to Sun down
Occassionally watching the rats eat the apples
Whilst I drink my tea and stroke Lama Red
Or hear the people laugh as the sun is caught in the mound
& the double rainbow appears
Sometimes I shall sleep dreaming of the elephant running through the burning land
But then again how do you get the cow off the land when mad farmer comes calling?!
Moonlight Young Prince
I could eat you even swallow the red Irish brick
& descend into the dark, dark ground
Heres to Dao Shonu!
Heres to Choggie!
Slianthe to you all!

(Dao Shonu -- Moonlight Young Prince was formerly one of CTR's centres in Eire)

3D Stupa in Google Earth

On this 22 anniversary of the parinirvana of the Vidyadhara Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche I would like to make the small offering of a virtual stupa (which is not entirely finished) that can be seen at the virtual SMC in Google Earth. First get the Google Earth program FREE at http://earth.google.com/download-earth.html

Then get the 3D stupa file.The file is about 2 mb, and can be downloaded by clicking here.

There is also a version at the Google 3D warehouse but for some reason it appears as grey and not white, and without full color gate details. This one should appear as I intended. Now open Google Earth and make sure you have the view "3D buildings" and "terrain" option turned on in the layers menu (bottom left) and then double click the 3D stupa file you downloaded. Google earth should take you directly to SMC but sometimes not, so you can type it in to the search window if necessary (though people have located this place as far away as boulder). Take the time to navigate with the controls (to the upper right) around the stupa. Virtual circumambulation while not equal to the real thing must be somewhat beneficial!?

If you don't want to go through all that you can see some 2D pictures of the 3D stupa at http://www.4shared.com/dir/13591655/91c5e24d/sharing.html

Just click on the folder named pictures of 3D great stupa.All the best,Greg Smith

Poem for Chogyam Trungpa Tribute Page

For the Eyes of the Solitary Warrior Only

The War was Never Begun.
The Battle Never Ends.
Winning and Losing are Costly Illusions.

The Solitary Warrior Knows when to Engage.
Make a Good Dinner; Be Sure and Place Flowers.

by Philip A. Bralich, Ph.D. from c1990 Vajrayogini Fire Puja.

Allies

Underneath
There is always a tender heart

A promise to fulfill
A sunrise for the faithful
A whisper for the waiting

Chaos for the insightful
Dissapointment for the clever
Wonder for the fearless
and soft-hearted

Protectors await
to melt arrogance and self-righteousness

How can we draw lines
When our allies are so close?

Dudley Jackson
Columbia, SC
April 4th 2009

Chogyam Trungpa

By Lee Weingrad
(To the tune of "Joe Hill")

I dreamed I saw the Vidyadhara
alive as you and me.
Says I "But Boss, you're twenty years dead"
"I never died" said he,
"I never died" said he.

"The 3 Lords killed you Sir,
they shot you Boss" says I.
"Takes more than maras to kill a man"
Says the Boss "I didn't die"
Says Boss "I didn't die"

And standing there as big as life
and smiling with his eyes.
Said Boss "What wasn't born can never die
went on to organize,
went on to organize"

A toast to the Dorje Dradul of Mukpo Dong

It is amazing how fearful I am when facing you. I always was and may always be. Here I am again--a simple request to make a toast to you--has roused that fear again.

As I sit at the feet of the most profound, the most brilliant, the most just, the most powerful, the most all victorious person I have ever known, and may ever know for lifetimes,

Why should I be so afraid of that cosmic mirror you always hold up?

Without you I would never have learned what that quivering heart is all about and that is where the stroke of Ashe begins.

It is in that moment of fear that werma and drala begin to gather and their horses begin to stir.

I sometimes hear the sound of the harnesses, the clinking of the crystal armour, the stomping of the horses' hooves, all that energy preparing for descent into my heart and all hearts in that one, quivering moment.

Here we are in Nova Scotia.

Believe it or not, along these craggy, ocean worn shores, there are chrysanthemums growing.

It worked! Your smile produced them petal by petal,

And our tears of longing helped them grow.

Why are you not presently with us?

You are, I say, always, always, always with us, which makes me cry more.

Will my tears produce future warriors?

That is my aspiration, that is my offering.

I love you so much, I miss you so terribly

From the pain of that heartbreak I cry Ki Ki, So So

And I vow to perpetuate your world.

To the Dorje Dradul

-Trudy Sable (This is a toast that was offered some years ago at a meeting in Halifax, Lady Diana presiding.)

You are entering my vajra word  

 

        Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

 

Never forget the Hinayana

Never forget blue/red moths on ratna bathhouse

Never forget almond liquid soap

Never forget humming bird in my eye

Never forget 13 dollar sake box

Never forget oriyoki lessons without speech

Never forget staying up for thirty hours

Never forget CTR in tent eating omlette at 10.00pm

Never forget Sergeant Lyon banging drum when I was dead, dead tired

Never forget that girl smiling

Never forget Regent Osel Tendzin empowering us all

Never forget thinking it is too bright in here

 

Never forget!

Never forget!

Never forget!

 

Heres to La Vid and 86 the best year ever!

 

Rita Ashworth

Stockport UK

 

Haunting , As You Promised.

I would like to dream about you to ease this longing,

but your presence continues on in everything, everywhere,

so what could a dream of you satisfy? 

You are there always, you are not there at all.

Sometimes I think I see you driving in another car on the L.A. freeway.

That would be so like you to show up that way, waving as you pass.

I offer my song to you when I sing.

I put you in the audience becuase it makes me tell the truth.

You really are there, you are not there at all.

I was your student when I was 17; this year I am 50.

I wonder if I have any idea about anything.

I really do wonder.

Dharma.

Then I remember I am a Mukpo, too.

And I can rely on our connection wholeheartedly.

I really don't mean to be so stupid.

I don't want to waste time.

I don't want to be distracted.

I had the best opportunity a person can ever have.

I was taken, every bit of me, by the King of the Universe.

I am writing this as if you would read it yourself,

You really are there, you are not there at all.

Offering you everything, anything, all of it, always, forever,

Always, everything, on and on, forever and ever and ever.

------

-Anne Kerry Ford

Ojai, California

Gratitude

Let me be thankful every moment of every day
And not just for a few moments on Thanksgiving Day
In this world, full of pain, horror, love and courageousness

Somewhere someone is tortured and hunted while I am free of fear
Their suffering is as deep as the darkest chasm

Somewhere someone is without is without the food, medicine, shelter that have surrounded me
They waste and die in pain and hunger that I've never known

Somewhere someone has never been cared for as I have been cared for
They were parented by abandonment, neglect, and mistrust while I was protected and instructed by selflessness

Somewhere someone has given up hope of the rescue that I have never needed
They are desperate but sure that no one will hear their call
In a realm of barren loneliness

Let me remember the plight of the unfortunate
Let me remember the confusion of the lost
Let me remember the power of my fortune
Let me share it with the world

And when misfortune finds me
Let me be thankful for the wonders of my life
When I am sad or afraid let me be truly so and not indulgent in self-pity

Let me remember the faces of those that have loved me
Let me remember the gifts born of true love
Let me remember that I was lucky
In a world where love is precious

And if I am truly wretched
And I find that all hope has abandoned me
And all my friends are gone
And every moment is measured in pain

Let me remember
That in my heart
There is an eternal spark of love

And that I saw it and accepted it
And I saw that love and gratitude
Are one and the same

By Dudley Jackson
March/April 2008
Offered respectfully for the 21st Parinirvana of Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

You nailed it

Born and bred in Tibet,
you clipped your fingernails
into the batter of Western mindlessness
and made organic hole wheat.

The first time I met you,
you stole my mind
actually, not mind
you stole my self
for a few moments.

Your fingernails of unimpededness
were eaten by the hungry students:
Mukpo keratin.
You rose to every occasion.
It was the yeast you could do.

-Elisabeth Gold

I was looking for you all over

 I was looking for you all over

And couldn't find you anywhere

When I rested my mind in sadness

Your presence become overwhelming

Displaying phenomena dancing

 

From Angelika Siaw (Karma Phun Tso Cho Dron)

Sadhakha living in Kenya

Attendant??.

ET Guru

Waiting at the door

Falling at the door

Through the years

Of madness

To a point of kissing Angels

Loved and very distant

ET Guru shuffles off

Backstaged ? intensely watching

Worlds/indifferences/demons

Confusions/contests/clarities

Of references points

Annihilated by nectar

In Londons' public houses

ET Guru

Tinkles Bell

Cremates this/that

Cycles to the Sun

&blows up with a rainbow

Camera'ed by flicking buttons.

ET Guru you are dead?

And packaged for the millions

Like the lion on the egg*

HO HUM

HA HA HA!
Amen!

Amen!

Amen!

 

 

(A lion stamp is sometimes placed on British eggs to state they are from the UK)*

 

Best

 

Rita Ashworth

Stockport UK

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1988 RMDC dathun - toast

"I've no independent knowledge of meeting Chogyam Trungpa in person, face-to-face."

 

In 1988 at Rocky Mountain Shambhala Center, at a banquet following a dathun (4-week sitting period) I offered a toast "to the sangha" This new word was one I associated with "family" and I offered the words to those left in the wake of such a teacher's vast activities.

 

Rather than "wake" I became curious more of an "awake" that such a teacher might have been sharing, imbuing, steeping, and serving.

 

Far more than the actions of any bodhisattva, Vidyadhara, I stead on in my life to lead to... where.

 

I read a bumper sticker .. "They can send me to college, but they can't make me learn."

 

I leave this cyberspace with a short poem:

 

I'm so, I'm so

in love with you

dharma be tried

before it is true.

 

                                               

Karma Sherab

 

 

20 years ago

we had gone to the ocean to release lobsters that would have otherwise been eaten
a ransom gift for Rinpoche's life

I never thought he would-somehow ...
anyway

there we were out on the ocean, where I loved to take walks
and extremely odd occurrence: there were tons of people there just looking at the water
for the water was full of ice
the whole harbour had filled with ice
an uncommon thing to happen
uncommon things happen when uncommon people are around

Rinpoche had been in bed for quite a long time
I was the housekeeper and had the wondrous task of cleaning his room
slowly and fully

Rinpoche was sometimes like a shaft of wheat without the kernel
all used up and shrunken
then the next day he would be "back" his body would be filled again

like the wheat kernel had been reinserted in the chaff
to be with him somehow stilled fear of dying
there was no fear

I kept my mind in a meditative state as much as possible, hoping to not disturb him
so it went
one day they took him to the hospital, another day they brought him back
I was gone for a bit and when I came back he was still sick and again in the hospital

so off we went to take the lobster to the ocean
back home for them, although a bit polluted near Halifax
people asked us what we were doing
it was a strange site, people carrying lobsters back to the ocean
luckily Joseph (Parent) knew what to say
he explained when a great teacher is ill it is an ancient custom
to release beings who would otherwise be killed
so the lobsters went back to their home

a few days later, I as sitting in the sun for it was 24 degrees
unheard of in early April in Halifax, N.S.
but then unusual things happen when there are unusual people around
my then husband, Richard, called to say: come to the shrine room
Rinpoche is dying and we are to do chants to ask him to live
off I went, not believing he could die
hadn't he just said at '82 seminary that our practice would keep him alive for 10 more years

lots of shrine candles, so many that some broke from the heat
shrine full of light
beautiful chant
heart wrenching
then a call
we all went to the court

as I walked in through the front door, I felt on the verge of loosing my mind
not just my seat
and there in full suit and tie as kasung was Silas, my son this lifetime, and he said something
something so true and to the point that it brought me back
fully present, open and willing

I was able somehow, I think due to Joudie (Westman Adolf),
to be present as they checked Rinpoche's body
they pinched his skin and felt the area around his heart
his skin was supple like a living person's and his heart warm

we stayed practicing there with Rinpoche for 5 days
5 days of being in CCL
not needing food nor sleep
just being in Rinpoche's mind

there was a nun, a French nun
she was with me practicing through all that time
I had not seen her before nor since
she said Rinpoche would be in samadhi for 5 days
and that turned out to be true

after the samadhi, we actually felt hungry and tired again

sometime within all of that practice
I acted as a guide bringing sangha who were arriving from
all over the world from the airport to Halifax to be with Rinpoche
not sure how that happened, as memory of the time is open and vast
not fitable into time and space
Many sangha and friends of sangha came to be there together in Rinpoche's mind

Rinpoche's total compassion
to the heart
all encompassing

being there
knowing that state fully, in every cell
unforgettable teaching beyond words

after the samadhi
off we went to KCL
serving Dilgo Khyentse and the four princes
sound as mantra
the trucks on the highway arising as dhamarus and bells
walking up the hill in procession
bagpipes in the fog crying to the guru
khatas
the fire
billowing smoke
in the clear blue sky
rainbows circling the sun
turquoise dragon thundering
mind stopped

outrageous things happen when outrageous people are around

may VCTR haunt us along with the dralas for all lifetimes till we realize enlightenment

- Hellen Newland, Chaplain

I was looking for you all over

I was looking for you all over

and couldn't find you anywhere.

When I rested my mind in sadness

your presence became overwhelming,

displaying phenomena dancing.

 

Karma Phun Tso Cho Dron (Angelika)

April 4- April 8, 1987

Only father guru,

I would like to say

I never doubted you.

I never mistrusted you.

I never forgot you.

I have doubted myself

a hundred times a day

I have mistrusted myself

a hundred times an hour

I have forgotten myself

with every passing moment

I have forgotten practice

I have forgotten that

without practice you don't know

when you're screwing up

I have forgotten you

Mistrusted you and

Doubted you.

You never doubted me

You never mistrusted me

You never forgot me

You always knew, you were -

You are

the very embodiment of practice

You have always known me

Nothing to doubt, mistrust, forget.

Your death makes no difference unless

You are even more present

It is easier not to doubt

Not mistrust

Not forget.

All this is my feast offering.

Accept it, only father

Please continue to

Shower me with your kindness

Please continue

Please continue

Please continue

Until in a hundred or a thousand kalpas

I may merit such unconditional regard.

 

Gail Whitacre

 

Supplication

I thought that I had left,
But I'm only in a wider orbit.
What did I learn?
What did I take with me to the world?

Your words ("Don't drop it!"), when handing me
my bodhisattva name.
The echo of a drum,
thudding like a heartbeat
through the halls of a hotel.

- Decorum Moon

I was too young, or maybe just too immature, to have been Trungpa Rinpoche's student in this life. But somehow, even before Trungpa passed away, I was very fortunate in that I met Khyentse Rinpoche and spent many months in His presence.

When the Vidyadhara passed away I dreamt I was in an a bedroom in the country with dormer windows. I imagined this was TR's retreat in in Massachussetts; he was giving an empowerment, it was just me and him. A few weeks later news of the cremation date got around, as well as Khyentse Rinpoche's itinerary to teach the Sangha. I made plans to go to Barnet with an acquaintance from Cambridge whose father was a diplomat in Asia that had been a friend of Khyentse Rinpoche for many years.

To make a long story short, because of my friend's connection, I found myself sitting behind the Vajradhatu sangha during the cremation ceremonies, in the VIP tent -- quite unexpectedly of course. To tell the truth, I was having more fun in the enormous crowd, probably too much fun for such a solemn occasion.

Front and cener was strange but beautiful -- right down to the civilized fashion in which the Vajradhatu sadhakas responded when their tent-awning caught fire. I stepped out of the VIP tent to take a few (forbidden) photos during the cremation. That was when I saw the rainbow in the blue sky.

I pointed up and said, hey, a rainbow! Pretty soon lots of people there was looking up too -- Ginsburg, Daido Roshi, Glassman (then) Sensei, Dhyani Ywahoo, many of the Sangha. And then the whole crowd, it seemed.

The Tibetan dignitaries -- too numerous to mention by name here -- seemed unconcerned, if they noticed at all. At the cremation of someone of Trungpa Rinpoche's stature -- America's Padmasambhava, Vimalamitra and Vairotsana all rolled into one -- a small rainbow in clear sky would be almost understated, if one thinks in the historical context. Since then I've seen many things more astonishing, but none whose memory lingers on as a pristine moment like this, one that defies concepts and never gets old, maybe because it almost never gets told. If not now, when?

Now all these years (and many readings of many of TR's books) later, it's hard to believe I never met Rinpoche, because no Tibetan teacher I met in America stands out more vividly in my mind's eye. This really is amazing -- all the more so, considering that many others like me, who never met Rinpoche, feel the same way.

--jpwii

p.s. The dakinis confiscated my prints and negatives, mysteriously, except for the rainbow.

poem for CTR

For CTR

I.

I saw some green

on the beginning of earth hour

Hospice of light in the city's

diminished garden.

A jumble, a ruse, of impossible

Avenues

by lateral means.

Up and down no longer viable but true.

I saw some green--

smoke on the mountain rising

as we looked to the sky.

Then,

there was nothing.

II.

Let me tell you of other ports;

Hunger's ruined feast

at the portal of entries

this city glimmering against her black

planetarium.

Guardians at the gate

Lead us into the nameless.

III.

Birds chatter amid cow plops of wet snow.

Cemetery of kisses*

falling in dissolution

reigning over

hard periphery of angled thoughts

condensed into conversation

for some green song I saw

while still a fire in your tombs.*

Twenty years later, still alive.

*italics from Pablo Neruda

Jacqueline Gens Brattleboro, Vermont April, 2007

LOTUS SUN

In the poetry of your presence

No words are needed

The delight in your eyes

Reflects the moon

Movement of your hands

Is liquid sunshine

Fragrance of mind

Like a lotus bloom

As the Vidyadhara gave the guru yoga ngondro transmission to a small group in 1977, this song spontaneously arose. -Olive Colon

Tribute to CTR

I first saw you on forbidden film as I fixed computers at DDL
The magical words and offerings
And I, a novice sitter forlorn at the new death
That brought me here to your seat
In the heart of the mandala

Sitting...

In the staff house…
Stories from the elders
Gin and tonic musings
Laughing and sharing
...I only saw the drunkenness...

In the barn...
Thinking, just thinking, don't worry, no problem...
Just sit, it's ok
...I only saw the dharma...

In the shrine room...
Chanting your words
Feeling the drum
And the warm morning sunshine
...I only saw the love of my life...

At the Abbey...
I felt the rush of painful feelings
Loss and the escape of one-pointedness
Watching everything come and go
...I saw only the complexity...

At the airport...
Longing for Asia
Looking for something else
I despised your shenpa
...I saw only the mirror...
In the arms of my wife...
The interconnectedness
Of you and I hangs lightly
On her breath in the morning...

- Greg Demmons

Greg Demmons
Visiting Professor
Liberal Arts Division
Gachon University of Medicine and Science

Haunted / Desperately Seeking an Exorcist

Every morning it wakes me up

Bouncing on the bed like a newborn baby

Wanting to go out and play

Yelling, "Change my nappie."

 

Every night it crawls into bed with me

Old and complaining like Methuselah

Snoring

Then wanting me to take it to the bathroom for a pee

Or the kitchen for a snack

 

It's teeth are falling out

There's dakini writing on its nails

It's breath is like an old dead kipper

Or fresh as frost morning sunlight

 

In desperation I say,

"Don't you have somewhere else to stay?

Didn't you die twenty years ago?"

"No," it replies,

"You're the one that died;

I'm quite happy here alive."

 

Please reply. Will do anything

for a good night's sleep or holiday.

Signed, Lulu the Fan Dancer

P.S.  The first wag that replies,

"There's no hope,"

gets a blue pancake on the head.

 

                                - John Riley Perks

April 4, 2007

In morning rain

twenty years ago, a robin

today the full moon.

        -Reed Bye

For Trungpa Rinpoche

Once again, last evening,

you described to us

what you saw, who you met and what was said

in the cave at Taktsang

 

It is nearly forty years

since you were there, for several weeks,

high on that cliff

overlooking the Paro valley.

 

They say the Queen of Bhutan

arranged for you to do a retreat there,

in the place where Padmasambhava, Guru Rinpoche

manifest as Dorje Trollo.

 

The story goes that for days on end

nothing happened;

nothing but frustration,

nothing but Bhutanese gin and an unhappy companion.

Then, suddenly, in a few hours,

the entire sadhana came into your mind

and was written down.

 

Now we can pick it up,

as we did last night,

and join you in that sacred world

where ‘all thoughts vanish into emptiness

like the imprint of a bird in the sky’;

and where, ‘although we live in the

slime and muck of the dark age’,

we still aspire to see the face of sanity.

 

It seems this was always what you did for us;

invite us into the world of the lineage,

into the world of sanity,

into the world that waits, unconditionally,

just a shift in view away;

the world that is none other

than the one we live in every day.

 

For Trungpa Rinpoche on the occasion of participating in a Sadhana of Mahamudra feast, April 4, 2007, the twentieth anniversary of his parinirvana.

 

Mountain Drum (David Whitehorn)

5April 2007, Halifax

 

 

C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

(With a tip of the hat to Sgt. Pepper!)

It was twenty years ago today,

having shown us how to work and play,

how to comb our hair and change our style,

and eventually how to smile,

he left on our own to do

the act we've worked on all these years:

C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan,

We're learning to enjoy the show

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

Sit down, wake up, and then let go

C.T. Mukpo's Open, C.T. Mukpo's Open,

C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

We sit and try to be here

Our minds aren't always still

Sometimes we can't wait for the gong

and oryoki takes so long

we wish we were at home!

But we know wherever we may go

and whatever we may think we know

that the guru's never very far

if we know our minds for what they are

We're glad he introduced us to

the path of gentle joy and tears

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan 

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan,

we like to shout Ki Ki So So

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

we're raising windhorse as we go

C.T. Mukpo's Open, C.T. Mukpo's Open

C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan,

we hope you have enjoyed our song

We're C.T. Mukpo's no more mopin' Open Heart Club Clan

and now we hope you'll come along

We're C.T. Mukpo's Open, C.T. Mukpo's Open

C.T. Mukpo's Open Heart Club Clan

 

Performed at the parinirvana feast at KCL to general acclaim from dathunees, Vajrayoginis, first-timer simplicity participants, staff and assorted riff-raff.

Invoking the energy

Invoking the energy of CTR can really only be done with extreme skill, extreme gap, or a lot of poetry. At the NYC feast on Wednesday night, we had a lot of the third by two awesome women, no less. Anne Waldman and Lanny Harrison rocked the shrine room, invoking Alan Ginsberg, "vintage Anne", and "vintage Lanny", among others. There are many stories to tell about Chogyam Trungpa, but the good ones all have something in common: humility, fearlessness, and a direct hit to your conventional mind. Lanny and Anne brought all three into the completely packed NYC shrine room, and I felt my heart for the first time in a while, beating, like it's supposed to.

Catherine Fordham

An Offering in Appreciation

Sitting here

Lost in thought

A taste of limitless freshness cuts through, illuminates

Nothing changed

And keeps changing

But when?

 

DJ

 

Parinirvana

Parinirvana

For a long time
I had many dreams
That you had come back
And I cried my joy to you.
We had a private joke
When the sangha saw
A video of the old days
And didn't recognize themselves.
You were always as close
As my own mind.
I told you everything.
You taught me to stay true,
Gave me the courage
To stay true.

When I read of
Rev. Ryuichi Yamamoto,
A youthful tantric master
From Kyoto, Japan,
A child prodigy
And Shingon master
Coming to North America
To tour Shambhala Centers
And learn more about
Chogyam Trungpa's teachings,
I rejoiced, knowing it was you.
My heart leapt:
He's come back!
He's arriving on the 20th Parinirvana!
He'll set everything right again!

Then I read: "Please contact
Miss Kiku Masamuni,"
And read the date: April 1st.
And I got the joke,
Which only increased my longing.

There will never be another like you.


Tharpa Nordzin

PS:  Thanks to whoever wrote that joke.  Good one!

Mud Season in These Parts (near Karme Choling)

Did it look like this
when you first surveyed the ground--
barren, brown,
and everywhere you look,
mud?
Takes a keen eye
to see summer's flowers or autumn's abundance
in this mess.

But then a keen eye comes from experience
and you brought lifetimes of it to these parts.
You also brought
other provisions useful
to one hoping to coax from earth its full bounty:
strong back willing to bend
energy to work around the clock
sense of humor that never gives up
and patience, patience, patience

A farmer with the land bred in his bones
sees late snow blanket hill and rutted road
and smiling says
like his father before him
"It's a poor man's fertilizer."
So, with a twinkling eye
you looked at our lives
and pronounced:
"the field of bodhi and the manure of experience."
What a nice way to put it.

We were full of it.
Full of ourselves, mostly,
and our glorious crusade to change the world.
You stopped us in our tracks
with a simple question:
Why do you want to do that?
And when we had blustered and blabbered
and rendered the air full of opinions
your response stopped us further:
If you say so, sweetheart!

Before generations of farmers,
the earliest people in these parts
studied their world
with keen eyes and open hearts.
They must have.
How else could they have known
that the tall trees,
all brilliant flash in fall,
in spring hold other wealth,
hidden?
They learned to pick the time,
to tap and to refine
the sap,
and so to know
essential sweetness,
wisdom they passed on.

You saw beneath the wild surface
untended and untapped
the seed of what we might become
the sweetness we could share
if we could just be coaxed
to drop our tricks
stop trying to fix
what had never been broken
and settle down to find
what had been running in our veins the whole time
unconquerable, pulsing, true.

Now, after twenty years
of non-stop thunderstorm
raining blessings through all seasons,
we too have begun to develop keen eyes.
We find ourselves
tending unlikely crops for these intemperate climes,
lotus gardens and coconuts of wakefulness.
Following your example,
we know not to worry about seeing the harvest.
Shoulders to the wheel of dharma,
we just do it,
steadily working through the slime and muck.

Did it look like this to you,
I asked when I started this poem yesterday,
mud everywhere?
Your answer brought a big laugh--
poor man's fertilizer
overnight
brown to white.


Carol Hyman
Barnet, Vermont

Chogyam and Jesus

It is Holy week and I am thinking about Trungpa Rinpoche.

As a Christian who practices Buddhist meditation, I have spent much time reflecting on the confluence of different religious traditions. In a culture where Christian faith is often associated with political views and lifestyles that make me bristle, I am perennially tempted to jettison what is left of it and start over. But it's not so easy. The symbols and practices of the church still have currency for me and stir my soul. I am still drawn to the deep waters of Christian faith. So it seems ironic that this week, Jesus' Passion is overshadowed by the passion of the Vidyadhara. And yet, maybe less an irony than a sign. Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche had a lot in common with Jesus, the Christ.

- Both had a vivid sense of a living spiritual tradition.
- Both were descended of and devoted to a lineage.
- Both revolutionized traditional teachings for a new generation, and brought them to life for a new people.
- Both invited students and disciples into their intimate presence, where they learned by word and deed.
- Both preached peace, and modeled deep commitment to being of benefit to society.
- Both surprised their followers: they weren't the type of leaders expected by early adherents. They did unexpected things that shocked both the orthodox and the followers.
- Both attracted a lot of attention, and yet many people turned away because the teachings were too radical, or too demanding.
- Both were prepared for and unafraid of their deaths, while their students denied and resisted.
- Both instituted a new community which carried on after their passing.
- Both had students who recorded their words and actions for the benefit of many: the Shambhala teachings may be likened to the New Testament, an expansion of the tradition based on the existing canon.

But Rinpoche did not rise from the grave on the third day to walk among his disciples, so maybe the Easter narrative is where this analogy breaks down. Or maybe not. Many of us reflect daily on his life and teachings. And the spirit of Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche surely dwells within the Shambhala community and continues to reveal basic goodness and propagate authentic presence in this world.

On this 20th anniversary of the Vidyadhara's parinirvana during Holy week, we all have much to celebrate.

Scott Kroeker
Maundy Thursday, 2007
Winnipeg, Manitoba