Supplication to the Vidyadhara, Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche
Kind root guru, Vajradhara in person,
Essence of the buddhas of the fourth moment,
Source of dharma more profound and vast than the ocean,
Your galaxy of oral instructions arises from one point–
the luminous star of egolessness.
Example of joyful realization,
You gave us the empowering scepters to follow your example.
Grant your blessing so that we may realize mind to be dharmakaya.
You smile red-faced from the kaya of simplicity.
Grant us the supreme siddhi inseparable from bliss-emptiness.
As compassionate Avaloketesvara,
You glow with the rainbow light of sambhogakaya.
Grant us the realization of luminosity-emptiness.
As nirmanakaya Padmakara,
Help us spread the dharma west of the Land of Snow and back again,
So that dharma is victorious over the three Lords of Materialism
and so that we all may enjoy the three yanas of the Great Eastern Sun.
Like Marpa Lotsawa and Great Repa Mila,
May our exertion not wane either in the world or in yogic retreat.
Grant your blessing so that we see the inseparability of samsara and nirvana.
With the bodhicitta amrita from your skullcup
Intoxicate conceptual mind so that appearance is seen as illusory
and emptiness as pregnant with possibility.
Grant us awareness that transcends mind.
With your cystal sword
cut through confusion,
Revealing the expanse of primordial purity.
Lovable, inscrutible Vidyadhara,
King of sacred outlook,
May our actions, like yours, become dharma art.
Druk Sakyong who breathed wisdom prana into our lungs
and opened our hearts to the mind-stream of AWAKE,
On top of my head
sing and dance with your awareness consort,
turning the wheel of supreme siddhi
So that I, easily distracted and lazy Jinpai Pema,
May repay your great kindness
by realizing the true nature you first pointed out.
Offering to Rinpoche
Tears freely rolling down my cheeks
As I listen to Your voice.
You put me here.
You keep me going.
Yet – all i have of you is a picture-video-poem-recordings of your voice.
Why did you leave us
You gave us this amazing gift
Not even waiting to see it fully unwraped
I need you to help me unwrap it.
For it is so painful.
All I have are haunting memories, shadows, recollections.
In all of THIS i see YOU.
For I want more.
– Written at a Karma Choling Dathun, 2005.
This day is heavy.
Almost forgot to stop and let air seep in.
I’ve found a treasure
Sadness you have attained through
A tender touch.
My jealousy is a blue flame
So pretty, what a beauty, what a shame.
A magic show
You are a caravan of gypsies.
You are picture perfect
Framed in stories
A metaphor for every time of year
You are the world
So simple though.
I take your smile as a gift
Nothing have I missed-
How can you miss what you’ve never met
A handshake is but a punctuation,
It is the
Page the space the time that carries
weight. And this weight I know
-not a briefcase full of pebbles,
but a clothesline full of sheets,
with a sudden gust of wind it is lifted.
Then all we have is today
– the footprint of a tender touch. A Rose.
You have given me a smile that only ever grows.
I have a song!
I have seen your caravan
I have heard this song before a long long time ago
It is ancient, turning
April 4, 2006
AND NOW YOU ARE DEAD
For Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche
And now you are dead,
Yet your mind keeps unfolding,
And your vast heart keeps beating
I don’t know whether to laugh or to cry,
But then with you, I never did.
You saw what was needed
And had to be done.
You took up a sword.
You chewed up this world,
And swallowed it whole.
I guess that killed you in the end,
As everything does,
But not before it made you blaze.
You cared so much,
You couldn’t care less.
Yet you went right on
Tickling our minds,
Breaking open our hearts,
Spilling our blood on your sword.
I owe you everything.
You showed me my mind
And asked me to dance.
Your death was the final blessing:
It let me know how much I love you.
For the Eyes of the Solitary Warrior Only
The War was Never Begun
The Battle Never Ends
Winning and Losing are Costly Illusions
The Solitary Warrior Knows when to Engage
Make a Good Dinner
Be Sure to Place Flowers
Philip Bralich, Ph.D.
Fire Puja about 1998
On April 4th for Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche
When you died,
Devotion became more confusing and entertaining than ever
Among those of us that never knew you,
Some worship you
In our homes,
We are presented the opportunity for real devotion
We could attend to the most intimate details,
Instead we flee
In our work,
Our hearts are connected to the arteries of the world
We could nourish the entire planet,
But we shut down
In our hearts,
We could make selflessness and kindness our priority
We could see with eyes of stillness,
But we stay blind
In your stead,
I devote myself to your same hopeless task of tenderness
Not placating you like some god,
I vow to love
On this day,
You continue to turn me away from spiritual materialism
The fish are biting right here,
This path is true
Still carry on your precious lineage and commitment
I vow not to waste this gift,
Thank you so much
Columbia, SC Shambhala Center
April 4th 2006
Rinpoche left us
Rinpoche left us
I can hear his voice
I remember sitting by his bedside
with my daddy getting him dressed
I remember waiting right outside
the bathroom for my daddy and Rinpoche to come out.
I remember singing nursery rhymes with Rinpoche.
I remember Chubby*
I remember “don’t forget the secret.”
by Catherine Fordham (age 6)
April 5, 1987
Spontaneous offering in response:
Hunkered together in the dusk,
smothered and cuddling in questionable Halegonian hospitality
of encroaching autumn, looming blanket of winter,
your ongoing illness and heavy medications
symptoms of the far vaster fogs and ice to come,
all encapsuled in the closed curtains
denying the passage of
but still somehow
as always with him
a very very,
– though now not quite so jolly –
How good you make time, Sir.
You and Ciel,
and later I,
sharing your last evening meal, all of us eating together
in the darkened, twilight grey-painted bedroom
your last in this world.
And after dinner
accompanied by witty and sad Mukpo chit-chat
then a last night of endless hyper-ventilation
without pause, breath after breath;
I left at noon;
and then you left a minute or so later;
and then Walter came in and found you,
and then months in and out of the hospital
and then the fog and ice rolled in
and then our world became permanently
as the ice melted and flowed away into the ocean of awareness.
Oh we long for you, Chokyi Gyatso,
our tears fill the rivers and lakes of these rugged, darling maritimes
providing rain of blessings
of our true-hearted, true-blue, all-victorious Mukpo-fied sadness.
Let us carry your all-victorious banner of compassion and good-humour
deep into the rocks and bones of this land,
and out into the vast bardos beyond living and dying.
Or, as they say in France: ‘one for all and all for one!’
In response to his call for poems or reminiscences, this last one living of the three who partook of that last supper’ together, Ashley Howes, Cape Breton resident, on this day of bittersweet remembrance, on this day when the winters snows have melted all away, composed this spontaneous poetic song for my old friend Walter Fordham and all in our marvellous Gem of a Sangha.
4 April 2006
The best green tea
The best green tea
came out of the fragrant wet earth of Jiangsu
southchinagrown in hillside rows
and harvested by
short dark skinned people,
laboring in large woven conical bamboo hats.
From this well,
Is life aroused and nurtured,
And drinking it, senses snap as if a fluttering pendant by a sudden wind blown.
Taste and fragrance are unparalleled
And people join together to drink it.
In imari bowl
bought at the 28th
intoxicating hesitation, wonder and desire.